Blogging Again?

Am I blogging again? That is a great question, my friend, a really great question. I don't think I would go as far as to say that I am "blogging again". The word "again" brings pressure....like I am expected to do it everyday or even once a week. It makes me think that I am supposed to participate in blogger contests and wordless Wednesdays. I don't do pressure and I have recently learned not to do expectations. If you don't expect anything, then when you get something, it is a pleasant surprise. So, surprise! Here I am. Isn't that pleasant? Therefore, I would only go as far as to say that I am blogging today. Today. Today. To. Day.

Why today? I'm not sure what provoked me to blog today. Maybe I'm tired of seeing that my last post was OVER A YEAR AGO. Maybe my life is overflowing with change and I want to shout it out to cyberspace. Or maybe I feel sorry for my youngest son because my blog currently features my big kid and the poor little guy isn't in the spotlight much. Maybe I am over my phase of being a more private person and just feel the need to put my stuff online. Maybe my husband keeps suggesting that I blog again. Or maybe, just maybe, I remembered that I like to write and this is a great avenue to do that.

So just for today, I am here, blogging. My boys are getting big, in stature and in attitude. I'm not sure which one overpowers the other; the stature or the attitude? They are still my complete joy and my utter chaos. Seriously, I laugh out loud at them daily. I mean, I laugh with them daily. From putting Mighty Beans in their underwear in attempt to keep the beat, from telling me I am not the fun parent no matter what I do, to my youngest refusing to believe he was born in a hospital instead of a manger, and to my oldest needing to be told on a weekly basis it is not his job to make people laugh at school.....they constantly keep me in stitches. Now if I can just mask the urge to bust out laughing and discipline like Dobson recommends, I'd be in good shape.

I am not going to spend time "catching up" on the last year. An entire year has gone by and I refuse to recap a whole year. I did mention it has been an entire year, right? A year. I've thought about a blog make over, a fresh start, a clean slate of sorts. But that involves commitment and I would feel the expectations to keep up with it all over again. So we shall see...

Like I said, I don't feel it is necessary to "catch up". For those that know me, you know my world, my family, where we are, what we are up to, how life has been like, and how to pray for us. Some of you know me better than others. You know my heart, where I have been, and where I am headed. For those that don't know me, maybe through my blog you will get to know a part of me, maybe laugh a little, and see a glimpse of what my world is like as a wife, mom, and follower of Jesus. I don't have all the answers, in fact, I have very few. I just have my experiences, what works for me and what I believe in. I am not the perfect friend, perfect wife, or the perfect parent. My house is a mess, the laundry is never caught up, I often grit my teeth to fight back what I'd really like to say and I sometimes flick my kids on the head for being disrespectful. I'm normal. I'm human. And there's always room for improvement, right?

So, for whatever reason, I decided to blog today. Just today. No promises. We'll see if and when it happens again. Oh, there's that word again...."again". I'll leave you today with a few recent pictures of the 2 boys that keep me in stitches. They sure are cuties if I say so myself.